Time

We are here today, gone tomorrow. Don't waste any time, just be grateful for what you have and love as best that you can. It's only time, but it's gone before you know it.

IMPERFECTION

Okay, so I'm not perfect, right? Oh, how I love my crazy days. Those events when my not so perfected self shows up. What a blast!! I've lived most of my life chasing after some sort of value that hovers between greatness and perfection.
Well, it's not going to happen. The best moments of my life are truly those moments when I fall completely on my blond head. Where the real blond me shows up and just throws caution to the wind. 
There are those people out there in wonderful land that just shake their heads at me as if what I really am, is well, just too out there for them.
I've figured out that understanding who I am and how I fit into the bizarre world isn't anything like I thought it would be. Somehow I just turned out to be stranger than strange, and for a lot of folks that is the definition of imperfection.
For the most part, I can live with that. I can't say that my life is so strange that I don't understand how to fit into this weird world that I call my life.
If being me and imperfect is exactly who I define myself as being, then I say just go with what you have and let the universe and God work out the rest. 
After all, if I find that perfect someone to hang out with, I'll give you call. Then we all can play together on that perfect merry go round you call a life. Till then, I'm the crazy blond in the corner of this universe just having a blast !!

When bad is good....

Sometimes I like to think that there' a little bad inside of me, not too much, but just enough to be good. How in the blazes could I ever say such a thing? Well... because being bad really can be good. It reminds me that that there's a grand world of imperfection within my soul. That letting go to be free enough to make mistake is actually good.
No one should ever tried so hard to live a perfect life that it crushes your spirit. Having free rein to screw up is good. It keeps me on my feet and vastly aware of who I really am. Now, I've said this before and I'll say it again, I'm not one to preach(certainly not me!!), but I believe with all of my heart and soul that God made us imperfect as a way of teaching goodness.
Being bad or imperfect also leads to some kooky fun. You don't have to kill anyone, steal a car or rob a bank just to be bad. Being bad or as I like to think of it imperfect helps balance the scales of who I am. Perhaps its just a gentle reminder that I still have blood flowing through my veins. It also teaches me how not to judge others.
If I am working on me, learning how to improve on myself and really trying to do what God wants me to, then I am understanding how to live better. There's a long and winding road ahead of me, yet I'm willing to risk my great sense of greatness(not that great) and just be human. As flawed as I am, for me the freedom to see, know and understand that when bad is good, I am still a work in process and that's all good.

Win Some, Lose Some !!

Now I must admit that I love to win. Who doesn't, right? Then, there are those occasion when I have to stop and ask myself what exactly did I win? This depends on what the fight is all about. Many times in the end I find that I'm not even sure that the use of my energy in the fight was worth all the hoopla.
If I'm fighting to win big bucks, I mean really big bucks( like millions) then I'd say that any amount of time and energy used in gaining that prize was a good deal. However, since that's not the case in let's say oh about 99.9% of all of my situations where I'm losing my mind, then I guess I'm just a loser.
Loosing has different value to each of us and for me the idea of being the loser in any fight, well just doesn't sit well with who I think I am.Yet, when all is said and done in the battle of control sometimes I simply have to stop and ask is this really worth all the fuss? I mean really?
I always want to be a winner, but not every thing in life is about whether or not I come out on top. Sometimes it's about how well can I handle myself and still remain dignified. Learning to let "it" go, stop trying to always be in charge and just understanding that life will continue whether or not you win the fight. This is a great lesson to learn, isn't it?
Deciding if the end results is worth anything of value. I would rather lose the argument, walk away with my pride intact, realizing that it really is better to understand that you win some, you lose some.
Nothing changes who I am inside unless I decide to give up being me and that's not likely to happen anytime soon. Win or lose, I'm still me and that in itself has value that you simply can't buy or put a price on.. Now that's the real victory in life, Maintaining self value. That's a win everybody can live with..

When It Just Hurts

Life has so many paths and highways and somewhere along the line I have suffered what I thought to be the most unbelievable pain of my life. This type of pain that I speak about is hurt and sorrow felt deep down inside of my soul. At times I have felt as though I could not survive what I was feeling. Other times I only wanted and prayed for the suffering to end. There have been incidents that have become, "When It Just Hurts" cases. In these situations I am left to feel my suffering alone or so it seems.
Where can I go? Whom do I turn to? How in the world will I ever get through this? These are the questions that I end up asking myself the most. For me, I'm just sharing how I feel  "When It Just Hurts," arrives and in my life the place I go to is my God. Now, I'm not a preaching sort of person, not in any universe, but when the hurt comes and it hits so deeply on a personal level, God is my answer.
Family, friends, church members and even co-workers are a great source of support, but at the end of the day when I realize just how wounded I have become from any painful event, my God is my greatest source of support.
I've come to an understanding from my own path in life that any journey worth taking is a journey filled with great joy and deep sorrow. There are hundreds of things that I wished I hadn't chosen for my life and when it just hurts so much that I can no longer bear the pain, I pray. Sharing my burden, my wishful thinking, my needs and hopes for others and asking for the well being of all of humanity is also being able to lift the heaviness of when it just hurts.
My sincerest prayer for all of mankind is that each one of us can define God as we see him and then pray. Pray that all of us can," Do unto others' as you would have them do unto to you."
Sometimes, when it just hurts, doesn't have to hurt forever. My prayer for you,  is that it doesn't.
Be blessed everyday. :)

SUDDENLY

Life is complicated, sometimes when we lest expect it there's this huge curve ball coming right at you. In many cases all we can do is duck, other times we stand in the path of the storm. How do we summon the strength to get through those moments when we are faced with the unexpected forces of nature and life.
Suddenly we are just standing in the quicksand of life's little surprises without any real direction of what to do. Being caught off guard happens more often that not. Too often there seems to be no way to prepare for the unknown. Suddenly we are left all alone to figure out the next best move with many of our choices being of little value.
How we weigh through the hard and unpredictable times most often define our true character. These moments can reveal the pure courage that it takes to face the unknown of our lives. Strength, tenancy and sheer will power sometimes are all one has in order to survive whatever curve balls we must dodge.
Nothing comes easy for us humans, yet finding the ability to face the unknown such as an illness or death can knock the wind out of our sails. We are fragile creatures that are constantly searching for the right path to travel with as little fuss as possible.
Many times in my life I have found myself on the downside to my life's path. It has been my "Suddenly" moments that have helped me to see the curve ball and to understand how and when to duck. My "Suddenly" moments continues to teach me that I have more unrelenting courage to face the unknown than I could have image.
Suddenly I am renewed, strong and able to face head on what is coming at me. This strength doesn't just show up, but is instilled in soul with God's help. Holding out my hand and asking for his help either while I'm in crisis or just getting through my day is all I need to do. My suddenly changes to the possibilities of what can and will happen in a positive manner.
Suddenly I am fearless against all odds and feeling good. Find your courage, hold out your hand and ask for help and suddenly you will feel the balance of your life again all the while feeling good!  Believe and receive. :)